What to do...

How do you ask/tell something you know will be upsetting? It's important that I ask/tell or find a way around it but I don't like being sneaky about this. I'm trying to build up my courage and talk about it anyway, even though I know it will be bad and she will not be open and will not be understanding at all. She will be disappointed but I think I could handle it because with they way things are going, she's going to be disappointed in my a lot and I really don't care anymore, she's so unreasonable... I just don't know. I guess I will have to talk to Harry and see what he says... We have a lot to talk about....

i really hate crying.

i just managed to screw my whole life over on facebook. i hate the feeling i have right now. The one where you know your being stupid and your wrong but you cant do anything about it and the guy i love doesnt understand. i hate that for the first time he doesnt understand and i cant explain it any differently. I really really hate this. and i dont have anyone to talk to because the only person i want to talk to doesnt understand and it kinda hurts. Alot.

Well...

I was a strange kid two years ago... kinda pathetic. I understand why no one wanted to be my friend now. I was just weird. But I'm way different now.
1. I am no longer completely obsessed with Edward Cullen or Twilight, though i still enjoy them.
2. I did actually find my Edward Cullen and we are extremely happy together.
3. I have, like, 3 friends and they are great.
4. My family is freakin ridiculous.
5. I'm not depressed like I was in middle school, not that I had a reason to be, I just was.

hehe

totally just hacked my own account....

What if....?

So me and the other Edward lovers were speculating in the locker room and I was like "What if Edward was black ?" And they were like ' OMG it would be so weird but he would be hot anyway... ' which I think it was true but it just wouldn't be the same....

Jeez...

Ok I've been thinking about how perfect Edward is and how I wish he was my boyfriend because he's so sweet and caring and protective.....I'm depressed now...

I got...

I got my first Twilight shirt!!!! I was so happy i almost cried...