i really hate crying.

i just managed to screw my whole life over on facebook. i hate the feeling i have right now. The one where you know your being stupid and your wrong but you cant do anything about it and the guy i love doesnt understand. i hate that for the first time he doesnt understand and i cant explain it any differently. I really really hate this. and i dont have anyone to talk to because the only person i want to talk to doesnt understand and it kinda hurts. Alot.